Saturday, February 21, 2009 9:37 PM
Elo readersA lot of things have been going through my mind lately. Quit SYF?...Quit councillor?...Quit secondary school and go ITE?...These are the three things that have been running through my mind. Sometimes i cried in the middle of the night before going to sleep and wake up with swollen eyes. I guess some of you would think "how stupid of this girl to cry over such a thing"....but whatever, i'm just expressing here. Even though there's only three main problem here but it will lead to a bigger problem and that is, a feeling of disappointment from parents/families/teachers/friends. And i am afraid if i never stop these problem i am going to regret it for the rest of my life. Haiz....what am I going to do now?....I'd better come up with a solution.........and fast!!!.............................
Friday, February 06, 2009 8:12 PM
Hello!
Haiz so long never update. Bz lately with school until lazy to update. Now seriously worried for SYF. My strings section majority are not serious. How scary is that. They don't want me to scold them, then who will if they are misbehaving?. I think that they are to pampered. They think that the teacher never scold that's mean there is no problem. WTH. Then one big problem is that only in front of the teacher they act only gd, but behind...haiz....they only treat the teachers with respect but not the seniors or cmcs. How to be better if they have this attitude. In my opinion, good character and good skills will produce a better music. It's like this phrase "it takes two hand to clap". They shouldn't be like "a frog in a well". That's what my teacher used to tell. But he no longer say it :( .
Some times i felt that i'm the one being the teacher as i'm more strict and angry than them. Funny huh.....but what to do. The strings people never take me seriously. They only treat the teacher with respect but not me. They don't understand what's my responsibilities as a senior.
I'm trying to help them but in the end always ask for early release especially on fri practice. Stat back until 4pm also hard to ask. Always complain, ask to be release at 3pm. You tell me which practice finish at 3pm!!. Nonsense!.